MY GARDEN
I’ve been thinking a lot lately about how I want to contribute to this space. The space that lies between me as an artist, me as a women, me as a biracial women, me as a citizen of America, me as a daughter etc.
How do I want to show up. What seeds do I want to be planting. What seeds have I planted.
I’ve been looking at what has been growing in my life. That is a way to see what I have been planting..
A couple years back during a breakup one of my great friends told me that we have separate gardens. Why was a trying to tend this garden with this man and plant seeds when it was never to be watered. I was told to let that garden sit and water my solo garden. Plant seeds. Tend to it. Nurture it.
It took me awhile to not check on that other garden, to not want to know how it was doing or what was growing. It took me a long time to not want to pull the weeds or bring it water. One day I realized I had not checked on that garden in Awhile. It was still there, in the same place. Now weeds had grown but also some flowers. I didn’t feel the need to pull either. I just acknowledged it and went back to my own. My own garden which was full of vegetables and flowers and benches and trees.
Some weeds were coming in so I pulled them.
This is a visual I use daily in my life. What garden am I looking at. What garden am I planting my seed in. It’s important not only to plant good seed and to sow good soil but to also plant it in the right place and season.
My garden will never be done.. but now I can dive deeper into what type of garden I am trying to grow.. what space I’m trying to cultivate. What I want to contribute.
I’ve been thinking a lot lately about how I want to contribute to this space. The space that lies between me as an artist, me as a women, me as a biracial women, me as a citizen of America, me as a daughter etc.
How do I want to show up. What seeds do I want to be planting. What seeds have I planted.
I’ve been looking at what has been growing in my life. That is a way to see what I have been planting..
A couple years back during a breakup one of my great friends told me that we have separate gardens. Why was a trying to tend this garden with this man and plant seeds when it was never to be watered. I was told to let that garden sit and water my solo garden. Plant seeds. Tend to it. Nurture it.
It took me awhile to not check on that other garden, to not want to know how it was doing or what was growing. It took me a long time to not want to pull the weeds or bring it water. One day I realized I had not checked on that garden in Awhile. It was still there, in the same place. Now weeds had grown but also some flowers. I didn’t feel the need to pull either. I just acknowledged it and went back to my own. My own garden which was full of vegetables and flowers and benches and trees.
Some weeds were coming in so I pulled them.
This is a visual I use daily in my life. What garden am I looking at. What garden am I planting my seed in. It’s important not only to plant good seed and to sow good soil but to also plant it in the right place and season.
My garden will never be done.. but now I can dive deeper into what type of garden I am trying to grow.. what space I’m trying to cultivate. What I want to contribute.